You're going to Disneyland TOMORROW!

"I am? WHAT?! I had no idea...this is so amazing! The happiest place on earth and me?! Together?!"
*Insert over dramatic squeal of awesomeness! 

Then the tomorrow comes, and I am still here...
"Are you kidding me?! Well that was just rude and disappointing.  

Since I was 16... okay maybe just since I was 18 I have been in this constant state of excitement because tomorrow may be the day I meet the one who chooses me and I him for better or for worse and blah blah blah. And it isn't just in my own head, how many times have you heard someone give the advice (or something similar) of...

 ALWAYS WEAR LIPSTICK.

 Why? "Because you never know when you will meet your husband!" So I put the lip gloss (okay, just your basic chapstick) on, and I get excited. "Today could be the day!" I wonder as I walk through the grocery store aisles... "will I meet him next to the pickles? Maybe he is by the milk... what if I am going down the WRONG AISLE!!!" So many possibilities, too many. I wouldn't even think about it if everyone else wasn't feeding the extravagant thoughts of "TODAY COULD BE THE DAY!" Since I graduated high school I have been in this perpetual state of excitement because...

That is a long time of being in that kind of heightened state. That is a lot of energy, and I am tired. Being excited is exhausting.

Someday I will go to Disneyland and I have my bags packed just in case, but today I will have a blast at Lagoon. Except I won't ride the rocket, cause that crap is scary.

As for tonight I will go to the movies with my roommates... but I will wear lipstick... just in case. sigh.

(This post was entirely inspired by my dear friend Adrien and our late night walk through a park in which we laughed hysterically and where I also kicked a tree.)